Expiration | Inspiration...

Expiration | Inspiration...

As we look to nature to find purpose in the self, we see the cycles, we watch the passing clouds, the waves come and go, the tides ebb and flow, the sun rises and sets. Ever changing, never ending, each passing moment witnessed perfectly imperfect. A peony flowers for around 14 days each year, so the reality is, the beauty of the peony is in the other 351 days, for without them, the peony would not be so.

It is in the unseen, not the seen, where true beauty lies...

Perfect imperfection is admired in the natural world, we watch without judgement at the beauty before us, the way each flower differs from the next, how the trees bend towards the light. Yet when we look to the self, this is eroded, ‘it should be this way, or that’, and we try to change that which is before us, casting aside something we deem to be imperfect or a failure. But what is failure...? Surly ‘failure’ is only so, if we allow it to be, if that dip in the road stops us in our tracks, but if we continue, life will blossom...

Expiration | Inspiration is just that, each sheet of expired film tells its own story of the struggles within the creative mind, a test from the universe to see if one will continue. The youngest of the film expired in 2007, so each time a sheet is loaded one asked ‘will this one work’, eagerly awaiting the timer to peal apart the film. There she is, the chemicals have started to dry leaving areas undeveloped, creating an abstract beauty, a beauty at first instinct is a failure, but with time and space renders a differing opinion.

This failure is synonymous with the struggles of artist’s mind, those moments when you struggle to show up for the self, when you question all that you are. For they show the days when you can’t show up, when the pain is too much and you turn the alarm off and roll over, the tears rolling as you questions your self worth. But that exhalation is always followed by the following inspiration, as important to appreciate as those moments of achievement, they are all on the road to success…